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Mother's Day

I do not doubt you would have liked

one of those pretty mothers in the ads:

complete with adoring husband and happy children.

She's always smiling, and if she cries at all

it is absent of lights and camera,

makeup washed from her face.

But since you were born of my womb, I should tell you:

ever since I was small like you

I wanted to be myself-and for a woman that's hard-

(even my Guardian Angel refused to watch over me

when she heard.)

I cannot tell you that I know the road.

Often I lose my way

and my life has been a painful crossing

navigating reefs, in and out of storms,

refusing to listen to the ghostly sirens

who invite me into the past,

neither compass nor binnacle to show me the way.

But I advance,

go forward holding to the hope

of some distant port

where you, my children-I'm sure-

will pull in one day

after I've been lost at sea.

-to my mother

Daisy Zamora (trans. Margaret and Elinor Randall)